if only... (but not even)

I've been trying to contain the anger.
be soft. be smooth.
no roughness on my skin.
soothing soul.
fuck you.

gonna kick you.
mule style.
gonna recover my gut, my strength.

gonna spit in your face.
and yours too.
ha.

don't cross my path.
bad timing.

torn, torn, torn.
twisted, twisted, twisted.
tree times tree.
get ready for me.

(I want you to suffer
all that I've felt for them,
it's not your fault I know
but you just came along
and smiled to me
so beautifully...
I want you to cry,
and at the end
I'll cry for you too)