another thing to learn...

Loneliness is a feeling where people experience a powerful surge of emptiness and solitude. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Someone who is lonely may find it hard to form human contact.

When is it going to stop? I'm not exhausted anymore, but there's an urge to feel completely normal again. Without blanks in the soul. Tears are weird now, don't hurt anymore, just remind me of my in between status. I'm scared, anxious, other times just grateful of my life, and how everything has unfolded.
The future isn't here, so it shouldn't be a worry.
Myself should be enough but sometimes I need the feeling of being loved, to be appreciated by someone I appreciate back. Oh dear! that would be so nice... but is not going to be like that for a long while, and I better learn to life with me, for me.
The weather is changing, and so am I.
Guess like nature, leaves must fall to bare my soul. Show the core of myself and from there, start to grow again looking forward to new summers for my story.
Summer, I long for you.
Winter, I'm ready. Come to me and froze my pain.